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Showing posts with label Liam. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Liam. Show all posts

Friday, January 21, 2011

4 months

Weight: She weighed just over 15 lbs. a few days ago. I will update after her appointment in 10 days.

Height: Not sure...will update.

Diapers: Using cloth about 90% of the time. Wearing size 3 disposables (we had 2 packages from my showers). I am washing a load of diapers every 2-3 days. The cloth diapers actually contain her messy diapers better than disposables. She poops 1-5 times a day.

Clothes: 3-6 months...but with a cloth diaper on, some things are snug. Probably will be in 6-9 months in the next month.

Milestones: Imitating mommy and daddy a lot now. Turning head all the way to the side when she hears us. Follows us around with her eyes. She knows us for sure now. Grabbing things and putting them in her mouth...teethers, rattles, etc...we have been trying to get her to like tummy time, I prop a small pillow under her which helps for like 2 minutes. She can raise herself onto her arms. But, she usually just screams. So, she has not rolled over in awhile. I guess she'll do it when she's ready. She can sit with support really well now too. My guess is that she's a little heavier now and it's hard for her to lug her weight around :) Another issue is that her head is kinda flat in the back and she has rubbed alot of her hair off. We are going to talk to her pediatrician about this at her 4 month appointment on the 31st. I have been trying to get her to sleep on her sides when she lays next to me. I know that this is common though, because we put babies on their backs now to sleep.

She also celebrated her first Christmas and New Year's this past month!

Eats: 100% momma. Breastfeeding is finally better now (for the most part). I am so thankful to have made it! My goal was to make it at least 6 months...almost there! She gets distracted sometimes when she eats. She'll pop off and look around, or make sure I'm still here. Or she just wants to smile at me. She grabs at whatever she can while she eats. Just likes to have her little fists full :)

Sleep: A was sleeping better, but she got a cold and it has been downhill since then. She had a few nights where she woke up every 2 hours. I think I am partly to blame though. When she was sick, I propped her up next to me on the couch. I have been extremely inconsistent on where she sleeps. Sometimes I put her in the swing, because she loves it and falls asleep in a snap...other times I rock or nurse her to sleep. And then sometimes we shush her to sleep in her crib. I bring her to bed with me on occasions as well. So, yeah, I need to stick with one thing if I expect her to get used to one thing. Pat thinks that I am more attached to Amelia being right next to me, than she is to me. Probably true. I'm just trying to suck in every moment with her. I love to hold her and be with her!

Loves: Baths, playing on her play mat, greeting daddy when he gets home from work, singing with mommy and daddy, being held, watching TV, her swing, getting her diaper changed, gnawing on her hands or anything that she can get her hands on, babbling, drooling, her jumperoo, bumbo seat, (her legs are getting almost too big for this though already) loves nursing, reading books.

Dislikes: her carseat, hats, tummy time, being woke up when she isn't ready, having to wait to eat, (she can really scream now....) having her nosed suctioned, (she can sometimes tolerate it) and the bottle.


January 23, 2009 was the day that we found out I was pregnant with Amelia. January 23, 2010, Liam would be 18 months old. So, January 23rd is a bitter sweet kind of a day. But, man, I miss him! Having Amelia to hold and love on makes me realize how much I am missing out on with Liam being in heaven. I just can't wait to hold and love on him again! I love my kids sooo much...never thought my heart could love anyone like this.

Here are a few pics from today. She was sleepy and not really into this little shoot. She also kept trying to rip the sticker off of her onesie. Her drool got on the sticker and created a bit of a mess....hopefully next month will be better!











Friday, October 15, 2010

October 15

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day.

We are remembering our baby boy Liam Charles today. 7-23-09 You are now a big brother to a precious baby sister. We miss you so much everyday and we look forward to being with you in heaven one day!

We also reflect on our miscarriage of twins back in October of 2007.





Thanks for the shirt Auntie Anne!!

Monday, July 26, 2010

It's been a year already...

Friday was the one year anniversary of Liam being born and entering into heaven. We miss him sooo much!

Here are some pictures of his headstone.


Front view



Back view...Patrick designed this family tree. It goes up to Liam's great-grandparents.




We had a small family get together to remember and celebrate our precious son.


Patrick's mom's side



Patrick's dad's side




We didn't take a picture of my family, but they were there too!

It still is hard for me to think about the day I delivered him. It was the worst day of my life. I will long to hold him again until the day I die. But, I am thankful to God for giving us so much hope and strength through this past year. Liam will always be our first born and soon he will be a big brother to our little girl! We have so much to look forward to. OK...time to stop writing this at work...tears are streaming down my face :)

Maybe I'll write more about Liam later...

Thanks for taking the time to pray for us and think about us this past Friday.

Friday, July 31, 2009

Poem

I found this poem on Nicol Sponberg's website. She lost her son to SIDS. Well said.

Please Be Gentle
By Jill B. Englar

Please be gentle with me for I am grieving.
The sea I swim in is a lonely one
and the shore seems miles away.
Waves of despair numb my soul
as I struggle through each day.
My heart is heavy with sorrow.
I want to shout and scream
and repeatedly ask 'why?'
At times, my grief overwhelms me
and I weep bitterly,
so great is my loss.
Please don’t turn away
or tell me to move on with my life.
I must embrace my pain
before I can begin to heal.
Companion me through tears
and sit with me in loving silence.
Honor where I am in my journey,
not where you think I should be.
Listen patiently to my story,
I may need to tell it over and over again.
It’s how I begin to grasp the enormity of my loss.
Nurture me through the weeks and months ahead.
Forgive me when I seem distant and inconsolable.
A small flame still burns within my heart,
and shared memories may trigger
both laughter and tears.
I need your support and understanding.
There is no right or wrong way to grieve.
I must find my own path.
Please, will you walk beside me?

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Liam Charles 7-23-09

I plan on writing a more in-depth post of Liam's story later and posting some pictures. For now though, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has been there for us through this experience. We know so many people have prayed for so many weeks with us. The Lord has decided that Liam was needed with Him in glory. We had a beautiful funeral service for him on Monday. Please pray for us as our hearts heal. I can't believe how much I miss him already. My heart will forever have a place for our precious son. I can't wait to hold him in heaven.